searching...searching...searching!

Sunday, November 14, 2004

What a day yesterday was !

Melissa called....she found Justins birth mother.........It was a great celebration for them....but Melissa also informed me that HER birth mother stole her identity and ran up 3 bills.....one for the purchase of a computer..........There was a reason all 3 of her kids were taken from her.....she is truly a sociopath.........But it was something we had to let Melissa find out for herself....When she needs comforting...it's us she comes to..........Had a nice speaker phone conversation with my parents last night.....and then my Mother this Morning....also a great call from Denny.....The deer had better watch out tomorrow...........I'm once again staying at home today...........I love this paying off debt............Why didn't I get into this sooner??????// kyle called last night...and I placed an order for goodies from his school....Grandkids are just so luscious !!!!! Linda

Saturday, November 13, 2004

It's fall

It's fall all right...the trees are bare....their contents...lay on the ground...all over the place. Denny is gone deer hunting with his brother....my parents heart tests showed that noting needed to be done at this time.......I can relax now. I'm reorganizing the bedroom storage areas.....I'm working on paying off debt...I stay at home and glory in not spending money needlessly.. What a transformation for me...and I enjoy it. I think about going out......but the feeling / desire passes...and I'm proud that i did something to help us pay off debt. I think about dinner out...and then head for the fridge. I'm learing....why did it take so long...I shouldn't ask...but just be thankful that it became a way of life....A friend returned from Brazil today...telling stories of a hold up at gun point...while she and her daughters family sat in their car at a light.......They were lucky...and only lost their expensive watches..and thei sence of safety...it could have been even more tragic......She is elated to be back in the good old USA! Linda

Thursday, October 28, 2004

Worry !!!

Lots going on..........Waiting for my Mothers heart test results....and My Dad has another heart test today........On Tuesday...We went up and brought the trailer back down ........And yesterday...Denny went back tot he cabin to pick up carpeting at Mitch and Judye's...and he will come back home today...Hopefully...the roofers finish this place up today....I'm staying at home and cleaning today....plus tons of laundry. We need answers for my parents health...This is so hard waiting.....with their history of heart diseases...........Linda

Monday, October 25, 2004

In Search Of The Perfect Life

The roofers have returned as expected...but it appears they are working all day today........Denny due home....I'm working on laundry...and will have more when he gets here. He officially slept in the cabin last night.....we will go get the trailer tomorrow weather permitting. Waiting to hear how my Mother tolerated her heart tests.........I'm washing dishes...and vacuuming.....and staying quiet. Will also do some reading.........The noise on the roof is unbelieveable.....I even went to check for broken windows......there were none....but Stormy is pretty upset with the noise.

Sunday, October 24, 2004

Sundays.....

It's been a lazy Sunday here.....More work on the guest/spa/meditation room........Talked to Denny several times...and my Mom.........Did some reading......and napped on the couch with the cat........it's cold and fall like outside.......I had a strong desire to to walk around a store...but know that I'd end up buying something......so I stayed home......well....the dogs need attention now....and I will feed the birds.......then maybe a DVD.......I made the heavy decision this morning to go back to Weight Watchers points.......at 218....I woke up feeling fat and shocked that I had put some pounds back on.......I do feel a new...renewed interest...and I restocked/ reorganized the pantry into individual meals...to make it easier......so far.....so good. Denny is making the big switch today....moving the things into the cabin from the 5th wheel trailer......He will come back here tomorrow.....and then we will both go up and pick up the trailer on Tuesday hopefully. The roofers will still be here.........My Mothers heart tests are going to be done tomorrow...and my Dad's on Thursday......Word is...he will need an angioplasty / catherization......His heart bypass is going on 17 years now. Big winds last night whipped the outdoor furniture around...need to go there and straighten things up...and fill the bird feeders......Linda

Saturday, October 23, 2004

Musings......

I have had a very productive day..........I considered joining Curves For Women...but after seeing that I had to make a 1 year commitment...decided to use the exercise room at home....It's free.....and no snowy driving to reach it. Talked to my parents...who were finally able to get their flu shots....they were given in an empty mall store area.....the line wove around the mall and then outdoors........but thankfully...they made it to the nurses...without having to give up and go home....my Dad's leg swelled as expected......they said people were brought in on stretchers and in wheelchairs...and by ambulance.......It shocks me how little is being done for the elderly this flu season...I'm still a Bush supporter.....no matter how much Kerry wants to blame him for the vaccine shortage. I'm forgoing my shot this year....so is Denny. I started organizing the guest room...which will now become a combo guest rm/spa/meditation area. I'm making it mine. I spoke to Denny....The kitchen cabinets and counters and sink are going in at the cabin.....what fun...I can't wait to see them. I have decided to totally reorganize all 12 rooms of this place. Moving things up to the cabin is helping thin things out here.........It's not even 6:00 P.M. yet...and I've already had a soak in epsom salts and I'm in my pajamas..( the pink ones with the blue tulips)..it's cold and rainy.........I'll spend plenty of time tonight reading.....under an afghan......Linda

In Search Of The Perfect Life

Well........Here I am.....56 years old and still looking for the perfect life. I know what I like......I have firm opinions........I know what ducks in a row look like. I want my ducks in a row. I know what to do.......it's the doing part that trips me up every time. I need to lose weight. I need to get my home more organized. I need to exercise more. I need to spend more time with meditation and yoga. I need to get healthier. And I'm wondering....if life is a stage......Is my show a flop? Denny is retired, the kids are grown with lives of their own, I no longer have to get up in the mornings and go to work in bumper to bumper traffic. Just to turn around and move in the opposite direction in the afternoon. I have all day...every day is mine. If I lived in a glass house...with people walking by...or standing and watching....would I do what I do now? I think NOT! I would make a concerted effort...to do everything...make every move...the best it could be. Live every moment at it's finest. This is my stage.......and now I make my moves public.................